it must be quite exhausting work being that cute & angelic all day

thank you, i sadly relate very much to what you describe and i hope you have a lot more peace in your brain & life going forward! it’s hard being in the rough seas but i know those calmer waters are there, and now so do you :)

i haven’t been able to have consistent access to meds in the last couple years unfortunately so i can’t speak much to how things shake out with long term usage, i do remember some anxiety did come back a bit while i still had regular access (i do have ptsd as well so maybe not so unexpected) but for me it was still nowhere near the level of unmedicated. for some people i know that have been on it a lot longer than me they say it takes the edge off just enough, then other people i know say it actually made their anxiety worse so there seems a bit of variety in experience with it!

yeppp, i was late-dx and when i first got put on rits about 90% of my anxiety dissolved and i was walking around like “holy shit…is this what normal people feel like?? they just get this shit for free?!”

it was just mind-blowing to me that i could finally follow a train of thought and not be constantly overwhelmed by brain noise and other people just… didn’t have that going on at all

yes please make art!

i too felt like i am not a creative person and didn’t have any skill. started learning to draw a little over 2 years ago now and am enjoying the journey very much. no, i’m not very good (yet?), and i may never get to a “professional” standard, but i am enjoying it. it feels good to have an outlet and build my skill, learn things, and occasionally doodle something for someone that makes them happy even if it isn’t perfect or didn’t turn out exactly how i wanted. creative expression is a great gift to give yourself! i draw pretty much every day now and it has helped me immensely in many unexpected ways.

ahhh sad news, i dabbled around on Turtle occasionally and they definitely had one of the friendlier pserver populations in my experience

yess, it can be quite a challenge to overcome things like expectations & perfectionist tendencies and embrace play & experimentation, as well as extend compassion to ourselves as tired little creatures trying to get by in a tough world. i still have struggles with that but am very much about giving things a try just because they seem interesting, and not putting any expectations other than “might be fun” on it. it’s ok to just have a chill time & enjoy the journey! ofc it’s also ok to have more ambitious/professional goals but i feel like it doesn’t get said enough that it’s actually fine to be a hobbyist and even to be bad at hobbies (as long as safety is in order anyway).

immense cosign, especially to anyone out there feeling like “ohh but i am too old, i have no talent for anything, i am not creative, i don’t know how to art”. tell those thoughts to fuck all the way off, every day if need be (i have to do this!), and try some stuff out! it doesn’t have to take a lot of time or money, it doesn’t have to be “marketable”, you don’t even have to tell anyone else about it if you really don’t want to. you deserve to give yourself this gift (yes, even if your brain says otherwise!)

i like NeoDB, it’s handy for me to log movies/books/shows/music in one place

this poor hungry boy, he is wasting away 😭

!artshare@lemmy.world my beloved

i think !sillydrawingrequests@sopuli.xyz and !connectasong@lemmy.world are pretty great too

this is really cool to see, if i can use this with my solo pserver i will be very happy! thanks for posting it!

on the upside there is no gas leak in my apartment so that’s nice, still got a month of cold showers ahead while they go thru the rest of the building but i am getting used to it already and my hair seems to be liking it.

still going with the C52, started week 6 (5-point perspective stuff) yesterday and i am now struggling a lot, but i suppose thats why it’s called a challenge and not a super easy time. just got to remember brain is learning and its ok that a new thing is hard.

yesss it is well worth it!

off the top of my head: The Terror (S1), Interview with the Vampire, Extraordinary, Black Sails, Righteous Gemstones, Kingdom (the korean one not the lars von trier one), The Last Kingdom (unrelated to previous yet both involve swords 🤔), Orphan Black, Taskmaster

like many here i am still enjoying Fallout as well. and looking forward to Paradise coming back this month too. i think i also want to try getting onto Spartacus (yes more swords) because i heard good things about House of Ashur

nothing terribly new for me but i continue to be an Odonis Odonis - Spectrums enjoyer