I guess you don’t really need to wait for a holiday to express your love and commitment to each other.

That’s right. We don’t celebrate birthdays, Xmas and stuff like that… because we don’t wait for a specific date. But we also don’t worry much with gifts and presents, we just care about one another ;)

I’m just lonely lol,

I think you’re spending your time in a good manner: reading is never a bad idea. Maybe treat yourself with a new book? I mean, one you may not usually think like reading. It’s could be like meeting some random person somewhere: it’s impossible to know in advance how far this encounter will lead you :)