I really do. But there are always obstacles in the way, ruining everything. I can’t remove or avoid them. People say “Nobody is an island” but that’s not true. I am an island. Unable to reach other islands out there, just like they can’t reach me.
I really do. But there are always obstacles in the way, ruining everything. I can’t remove or avoid them. People say “Nobody is an island” but that’s not true. I am an island. Unable to reach other islands out there, just like they can’t reach me.
It sounds like you have way bigger problems you should solve beforehand. Most people don’t like to listen other people’s problems, if you always speak about how bad your life is, it can sound like you begging, and they don’t want to listen to that, it’s annoying. Maybe if other parts of your life become better, you will seem like a different guy.
If you have no home and no friends, you can easily move to another city where there is still an open uni.
I solved all the problems I can solve by myself. I’ve always been a very self-sufficient person. You need to if you grow up in poverty. But for the rest I would need support but there is none. Aside from this post I never speak about my problems because this only results in more problems (like you mentioned). Which means none of the remaining problems can be solved.
I can’t move to another city. I would lose the only source of income permanently, I would lose a place to store my stuff, I wouldn’t even be able to shower anymore because my city is the only one with cheap public showers. And no other university building features outlets which can be used by visitors.
What country are we talking about here? The last two sentences cannot be true about any. I’ve just been on the road for six weeks, there were free showers in many places, especially when there’s tourists about. Get yourself a camping app like Park4night or similar. There you can see facilities.
Not the US, it’s a European country. No apps needed because everything is located in one city. We had more public showers in the past (thanks to monarchy) but most of them are gone now, just like free public toilets and wells.
What Liechtenstein? Luxembourg? I can think of no European country where any of that would seem very likely.
As I said, I think you’re very focussed on your identity as suffering. If you changed any of your circumstances, you maybe wouldn’t suffer anymore, but then you’d lose a part of your comfortable identity.
Explain to me in detail how this can be comfortable to me. Explain to me in detail how I can change my circumstances - without knowing anything about my circumstances.
I know how strange that sounds. When someone told me the same years ago, I was very angry. But later, I realised they were right. It was more comfortable to keep being miserable. At least I knew how it works; it was predictable, well-known, familiar. Being well, feeling happy, trying to see positives… those were things that were unfamiliar. Scary. Who was I if I wasn’t miserable?
Tell me the upsides of being homeless, disabled and broke. I’m curious. But keep in mind I’m not you. I’m not a masochist (I don’t like mental or physical suffering), I don’t do drugs, I don’t drink alcohol, I don’t fancy the stereotypical homeless “freedom” lifestyle.
I’m also waiting for the locations of every cheap public shower in central Europe. Indoor swimming baths obviously don’t count because they are all expensive and people would kick me out as soon as they saw my legs.
I’m not talking about objective “upsides” to your situation. I’m talking about your subjective concept of self. Tell me. How do you see yourself when you’re not miserable? Imagine yourself as happy. What do you see? I’m not here to argue your financial or political situation. I know they suck.
I told you about a possible app, while there are many, that list cheap or free showers and facilities. As I said, I was just on the road for weeks. I know free showers exist. Especially for homeless people. I know of several cities and countries that have shower busses for the homeless. There’s shelters, gyms, gas stations, even some hostels/hotels let you use the shower.
But again, I cannot help you financially or physically or systematically.
Didn’t take long until the “Just buy a house bro!” point has been reached.
Wtf are you talking about? Nobody has said anything about that even remotely. I’m renting a very cheap, small apartment and I work part time in a job that doesn’t pay much.